Make it easy for them

It's been a while. My only excuse is that I have recently had a shoulder operation and typing with my arm in a sling wasn't comfortable. Besides, I don't think you've missed much, as I try to keep this blog less a journal these days than a diary of useful thoughts. This is why I'm not going to attempt to catch you all up on my life since the last post, although perhaps I'll revisit this year's BYO Easter Workshops in a separate post, and if you see me in person please ask me about my trip to Ischia (performing The Bear in the house it was composed in!!!). What I'm going to focus on today is some basic stuff that all singers (and even non-singers) probably know already, but there's never any harm in reminding yourself.

All that follows is courtesy of Sarah Playfair and Garsington Opera, with whom I'm fortunate to be working this Summer. The company has organised us a series of talks that we can attend, and the first one of these was on a 'getting your foot in the door' theme. The first thing Sarah touched on was the 'first approach', when a young, unknown singer attempts to contact a company to get an audition, or wants to appear on their radar some other way.

Make yourself findable online.
Apparently companies do look up names that are mentioned to them. If you've worked with an external director or conductor in college, or done a show outside, and made any kind of impression, there is a chance you will be mentioned to someone in a position of power (in a casting capacity, not evil mastermind or politician). Similarly if such a person happens to see you perform, they will want to find out more about you. Make it easy for them. Have a website, no matter how minimal, that gives them a bit of information about you along with your contact details (for technophobes, a quick tip, be careful when putting your email address on the site, as you may get a tonne of spam - guard against it by using hyperlinks). Your professional name should ideally be part of both your website address and your email. Once you have your website, keep it up to date and expand it as necessary. There's nothing worse than finding a site that hasn't been updated in months. Think of your website as part business card and part CV.

Think hard about how you write an email to a company.
So you want to audition to people? You'll have to write to ask them to hear you. Don't send a 'hi everyone!' email to all the agents and opera companies you can find. It looks awful. Take the time to research who you're writing to, how these people want to be contacted by prospective auditionees (don't write to the artistic director, it'll probably get lost), attach what they want (if in doubt stick to your CV), write politely.

CVs.
When writing your CV, bear in mind what it's supposed to do: make it easy for the reader to get the relevant information about you at a glance. Yes, it's nice to stand out from a stack of identical documents, but it's a lot easier to stand out in a negative sense than a positive one (the tactics seen in Legally Blonde may not guarantee success). Avoid too many different fonts and colours. Keep it clear. There's no need for a huge photo, it can be distracting and also bumps up the file size when you attach it to an email (try to keep this under 300kB and in .pdf format to ensure the recipient sees it the way you designed it). Check and recheck your spelling, taking extra care with foreign names of roles and operas (accents, capital letters, etc). Make the things that matter stand out (easier said than done if you're sticking to a chronological listing).

Things to include in your CV:
- your age (don't lie! - if you feel tempted to, just don't include it; if you came into singing late, say so)
- training
- teachers (some people don't like to know though, you can't please everyone)
- performances (with dates!)
- languages you speak or can sing in
- full roles you've studied
- your working status in the UK (or whatever country you're applying to)
- a photo
- relevant skills (first aid, acrobatics, dance, playing an instrument, etc)

Don't include:
- education prior to music college unless it's relevant
- reviews (if you feel the need to brag, put them on your website)
- only include your religion if it's relevant (ie if it influences the way you work)

When attaching your CV to an email, be aware that it'll probably be filed by the company. Make it easy for them by making your name the beginning of the file name, and include the date of the CV.

On a personal note I can confirm that companies do file CVs! I sent mine to a company a year ago, never got an audition, however they offered me a job a month ago due to being in dire need of baritones. I couldn't take the job, that's life, but it is positive proof that if your information is easy to find, good things can come of it.

Auditions.
We didn't go into these in great detail, but here are some tips to bear in mind:
- don't offer repertoire you know the company simply doesn't perform
- you can't know what companies are looking for, and unfortunately it is a buyers market, so if you don't get something, don't let it get you down - there's probably nothing you could have done
- there are very few people who get in everywhere straight out of college, don't assume you'll be one of them, assume you're one of the majority who'll have to work for it (it's down to luck as well as talent)
- try to maintain your sanity
- be nice in the audition, and this includes the stewards and other auditionees

Sarah told the story of when they were casting the Kenneth Branagh film of The Magic Flute, and the steward in that case was Kenneth Branagh's best friend and reported back on everyone and how they behaved outside the audition room, which did lead to someone not being cast!

Being asked back.
Once you get a job, make sure they'll want to work with you again: prepare, don't distract people when they're working (as a lot of this job is sitting around and waiting, find something to do that is discreet), be nice to everyone involved (opera is a team effort and everyone is of equal value). Make it easy for them to work with you.

It may all seem obvious, but apparently a lot of people haven't gotten this memo yet, so I'm just doing my bit to spread the good word.

I realise that this is a post just for singers, so I'll try and make the next one more interesting for everyone else. How about 'A day in the life of an opera chorus'?

The Gospel according to Maxwell

Our Lucretia rehearsals are approaching the point of complete runs of the show. To mark this occasion, our director sat us down to have a talk about opera in general. Just one of the perks of having Donald Maxwell at the helm of this production: he's always in a bit of a 'teacher' mode, or as he himself said today:

'I wouldn't want you to get hung up on the hurdles you have to jump. There are a lot of hurdles in opera. My job is to hopefully remove as many of these as I can, so you can focus on giving a good performance.'

While he was speaking specifically about his approach to directing Lucretia (where the hurdles in question are complex music, the looming title, a wordy libretto and the odd slow scene where at first glance there doesn't seem to be much happening), I think it's a good way of describing his attitude as a teacher and mentor.

Here's what struck me in today's talk (the title of this post is what Donald later called the session):

On the subject of acting in opera, Donald (having a reputation as stage-animal extraordinaire) said that there are remarkably few people who naturally integrate it seamlessly into their performance so that you don't see any hint of the mechanics involved in singing. Names mentioned include Natalie Dessay and Suzanne Murphy. He once said that to achieve that level you need either phenomenal skill or tremendous courage, preferably both. So what about the vast majority who don't have it as a natural gift? The answer seems to be osmosis. It only takes one great actor in a cast to elevate everyone else, just by offering what comes as natural to them on stage, the others pick it up and go with it. Donald described what was a hugely beneficial part of his own career: singing duets, especially with a partner whose skill set complemented his own. In duets you are constantly watching the other person, focussing on them, rather than yourself. Then you can incorporate what you see them do into your own palette of skills. When performing arias, on the other hand, all you end up thinking is:
'Well, I've stood still for a while now, I think I'll move my arm... Oh, that doesn't really work, does it? Maybe if I add the other... Oh dear, that's awful! What am I doing?'
At this point we all burst out laughing, because I think that thought process is terrifyingly familiar to all singers!
One final observation on acting is one that's easy to forget: 'Sometimes simple is enough.'

We now have a fairly set blocking for the opera, and what Donald wants from us now is to inhabit it and give our takes on these characters, within the framework of the sometimes precise moves we've been given. He says it's easy to forget in conservatoires, that it's not a test, it's a performance. In every audience there's always someone who doesn't know the opera, may never have been to an opera, didn't read the programme, etc. That's who we're performing for. And we should enjoy it!

He encouraged us to develop skills that will increase our employability: diligence in preparation, openness in rehearsal, readiness to try even the strangest of ideas, courtesy, etc. The days of divas are over, what makes people want to work with you is your dependability. On the subject of employment in general, he also said to take whatever work comes your way, as long as you can sing it. There's no point getting hung up on fachs and ideal roles, as you may never get your dream part. As for offers you think may be an odd choice for your voice, physique or character... Well, the person offering you the job wants you, so who are you to second guess them?

Then came a difficult topic: what if you're not succeeding? What if you're not a star a year out of college? Donald reckons there are three questions you need to ask yourself:
1. Am I improving technically?
2. Am I getting work?
3. Am I enjoying what I do?
If you have 2 out of the 3, you're fine. With just 1, give yourself 12 months and then see where you are. If it hasn't improved, then maybe it's time to...

OK, that was the sermon, now for a reward: quotes and stories!

'Opera can often turn into a person delivering a lot of intensity while singing, and that's not the same as acting.' Those who know the opera may remember there is a section where the Male Chorus describes Tarquinius' thoughts as he comes to the decision to go to Rome and test Lucretia's virtue. After we ran the scene for the first time, Donald commented on my performance: 'This is one of those scenes that can turn into you acting out intensity.' To be fair, I was mostly listening to our tenor and gazing intently out into the middle distance... He offered a solution:
'Tarquinius is drunk, and you know how when you're drunk you get these ideas that seem so good at the time. Maybe think of yourself as a lad on a night out in Cardiff who's just thought: I want chips! And I know where they make the best chips - Swansea! That's what I'll do, I'll go to Swansea! And while I'm there I think I'll have a kebab... Yeah! That'll be great!'
For those of you who see the show, try to forget that. It's a good scene, and the audience don't need to know I'm thinking of chips and a kebab...

On singing 'goodnight' over and over: 'I think the intention for Tarquinius is: Wow, she's even better looking than I remembered, I came here with a purpose, but this is going to be fun as well! You know, the usual baritone stuff.'

On NAs: 'Ah yes, there's always that moment when a cast member shuffles over to the DSM and whispers: Just so you know, I will succumb to a sudden short-term illness next Tuesday between 4 and 6 PM'

'If you're not getting any notes from the director or conductor, don't assume they're not watching you, allow yourself to believe it's because you're doing everything right.'

When to say 'no'

For those waiting for more Donald Maxwell stories, rest assured I am writing them down, but on this particular occasion I'm going to write about something else: when to say 'yes' and when to say 'no'.

Now I feel I should start off by saying that I personally have no idea, and tend to err on the side of 'yes', and it's all been fine so far, in fact if I hadn't jumped on an opportunity in December by (perhaps foolishly) accepting a concert with only one day to learn half of Bach's Christmas Oratorio, I would probably not be in the fortunate position of having an agent. Let me stress however that the whole adventure was a very stressful experience and a bit of a gamble: I learn music fairly quickly these days, but I'm no sight-reading machine and I don't feel comfortable if I haven't spent time to prepare to the point of excess. Despite my discomfort during the gig in question, however, I delivered and scored a significant win!

You'd think this was a great argument for the 'always say yes' approach. Maybe not... I was recently told off for taking on too much, and although this didn't refer to my singing per se, but rather my volunteer work for Opera'r Ddraig during a time of audition madness (which is still going on, in fact, I'm writing this on the train to London for 2 auditions in 1 day!). At the time I thought little of it, I fulfilled my commitments to Ddraig, sang two auditions to the best of my ability (I mean this in a good way: I sang as well or better than I ever have in auditions... Didn't succeed in one, but that just goes to show a singer's career is rarely an out and out success story), and all was well. But now, a couple of weeks of rehearsals and auditions later, I'm tired.

Not vocally, but mentally. With a recent injury stopping me from getting out on the water to paddle, I find my life revolving solely on singing, and to be honest I've had enough. If I'm not rehearsing or auditioning, I'm learning new repertoire for upcoming projects, travelling, looking for accommodation for the Summer rehearsal period, or going to the opera (fun, but not really a moment of 'switching off'). I even find myself talking to friends, or what's worse my girlfriend, only about singing...

So I've decided to do something that I have never done before: pull out of a gig without any health reason. In hindsight I should have cancelled the moment it became apparent that the concert was to be the day after the final show of Lucretia (of 3 in a row) and leave me barely a day off before starting rehearsals for The Bear with a contemporary song cycle looming as well. I feel bad, but my diary is still not really my own until I leave college, so a degree of prioritising is necessary and as I'm learning the value of taking it easy every now and again, I am beginning to appreciate the value of saying 'no' when necessary, and actually trying to preempt potential crises.

Is there a point I'm driving towards? Um... Not really. When do you say 'yes' and when do you say 'no'? Who knows... Say 'yes' whenever you can, and 'no' whenever you have to.

Learning to think operatically.

As college life settles into the familiar steady tempo of the Spring opera production, outside the rehearsal room I can feel that the dreaded 'real world' is drawing ever nearer. This will be my last big opera at the RWCMD, apart from Walton's The Bear which I am lucky enough to be singing in the composer's house in Ischia over Easter... but that's far away and doesn't really involve the college production machine, so for all intents and purposes The Rape of Lucretia will be my last hurrah as a student here in Cardiff.

We've just completed the first week of rehearsals and have a good sketch of Act 1 as a starting point for when we move into larger rehearsal spaces. It's a challenging piece, with difficult music, a libretto thick with metaphor and an overarching problem with the title: it gives everything away! The audience know what's going to happen from the moment they see the show advertised. Then they read the programme and know that it'll be my character doing the deed. In fact they may be disappointed with the first act, because not that much really happens, and with that title hanging over the whole thing the static slow-paced action turns into quite a tense experience. You know there's a storm brewing, but can't really see or hear it, there's just something in the air, but you still sort of hope the weather-man has got it wrong...

Or at least that's how it feels in my head, how I'd like the audience to feel. And yet as a performer it's so easy to fall into the trap of playing a villainous violent arrogant rapist from the outset. The Act 2 rape scene dominates the entire piece for me. It's so intense that I found it difficult to learn quickly, reading it drained me after half an hour, I couldn't get through more than a couple of pages a day... And I wouldn't normally call myself a slow learner!

It's learnt now, thankfully, and we'll be working on it when I return from auditions next week. I have to say, even after only one week, working on this opera has been a great experience and I can see it's going to teach me more about stagecraft than I've learned in my 10 years in music colleges! This is thanks to one man, our director: Donald Maxwell. 

For those who don't know who Donald is, perhaps this story will give you an idea: We were discussing the musical difficulties of Britten's score, and Donald said:

'It's not uncommon for things to go wrong in this music, even in shows, so it's important to know how to get back in. You may see this in today's dress rehearsal of Lulu, which is a much trickier opera.' 

This lead me to ask if he had been in Lulu himself (it's not very often performed), to which he said that he had. As a joke I asked:

'Donald, are there any operas you haven't been in?'

'Well yes... There are... Although I can't seem to think of any right now.'

While I'm pretty sure Donald isn't out to compete with Domingo in how many roles he has under his belt, he has a wealth of experience that few singers can match, and this stems from the fact that he is in constant demand as a brilliant singing actor, and having seen him on stage I can attest first hand that he is formidable in both aspects of that term.

So that's our director! It's my first time being directed by a singer, and it's straight into being directed by someone who's performed my role, no less... And it is fantastic, a true learning experience, because Donald relates what we do in rehearsal to other applications outside our production. Every session is crammed with useful tips and universal life-savers, as well as illustrative stories. I'll be writing down the gems to post here as regularly as I can. Here's the first one:

 Have the courage to not engage with other people.

What? Sacrilege! Everyone knows these days it's 'director's opera' and that naturalism rules! Well, as Donald put it: 'Natural doesn't always work for opera.' There's a certain energy and communication one needs in opera, which is where the phrase 'think operatically' comes from. This energy and communication need to reach the audience, who are separated from the action by the stage, the pit and however far they're sitting (depending on how cheap their seats). They want to see our faces (I know I do) and although in real life we always look at the person we're talking to, if you put that on stage and have to turn side-on, you're cutting yourself off from half the audience, who'll only see the back of your head. 

Of course, there's a line, and Donald is the last person to advocate 'park & bark'. You try and keep it as natural as possible with a clever use of angles and stage geography, but as a performer, you sometimes have to have the courage to deliver a line with your back to the character you're speaking to and do so with supreme confidence in the fact that you're communicating strongly enough for the audience to not even notice it's not quite naturalistic.

Still sounds artificial? Well, it wouldn't if you'd seen Donald demonstrating it. In fact it often looked more natural his way than the naturalistic way. 

This stretches also to how we time our movement and speech/singing. There was one moment where Collatinus had to deliver a line stoping someone else, which involved him standing up from his seat. Well, in real life we'd stand up as we say 'Stop!', as would probably be the case in straight theatre. In opera, it looks a lot better if you stand up and then deliver the line.

I think this has to do with how time passes differently when there's music involved, especially as singing is for the most part slower than speech. Keeping our bodies moving at their normal speeds means that they will simply get ahead of our words and we'll either end up stuck waiting for the words to catch up, or we'll have to put in extra movement. 

Opera's never going to be naturalistic, and those who try and make it so are fighting a losing battle. It's all about how close you can get to something the audience relates to, which is usually something that looks natural and harmonious. But if we're taking speech and cranking it a notch up by turning it into singing, surely we have to do the same with movement and gesture, so that they all match.

I could go on, but I've already expanded what was a couple of offhand comments by Donald into a huge debate with myself... I''m still at the stage where I have to think these things through, for him it's just the way he is. 

It's going to be a great 6 weeks!

Discovering the Wheel (A week with John Fisher)

I think 'privileged' is the only word that accurately describes how we all feel this week at the RWCMD. Since Monday we have been lucky enough to be working extensively with John Fisher, who I think must be one of the world's leading vocal coaches. Perhaps best known to the public as Chairman of the jury of the Cardiff Singer of the World competition, he has held senior posts at such opera companies as La Scala in Milan, The Met in New York, La Fenice in Venice,  De Nederlandse Opera in Amsterdam, WNO here in Cardiff, as well as working as a producer for Decca Records and Deutsche Grammophon. He regularly works with the best singers in the world, but this week we had him almost all to ourselves (well, to be fair we shared him a little with the NOS trainees, but still...). Apart from a public masterclass, he worked individually with all us MA Opera students, and I was fortunate enough to get two such sessions, as well as sit in on several others.

As ever, I will paste a list of my notes from the week below for my own future reference, and perhaps to serve as inspiration to anyone who might be reading, but first I'll try to briefly summarise what this week has all been about. What exactly is the mysterious Wheel in the title?

As John pointed out repeatedly during the week, what we do all stems from the text. The music and our singing is all about conveying the energy of the text, which is why he emphasised the importance of figuring out how the composer set about setting the words. It's not enough to do what's on the page, you have to understand why it's there in the first place: find the reason for every marking the composer gives us. Learn to speak the text in an energised way that's fully aware of what you're saying before you even sing a note. Then when we eventually get to the singing part, we get on the Wheel, and once on, we don't get off. It's aways turning, feeding energy into the text, the notes, the rests, phrases, the orchestra, the audience and then back to us, our support, breath, voice, text, notes, rests, phrases, audience, etc.

It sounds vague, but standing there and working with the man it all made sense to me, and I saw both in myself and my colleagues how much we lose by stopping at a rest for example, or not letting a longer note live, bloom and travel, or how much more effective and impressive it is to LET a note sound rather than MAKE it sound (it's as if the Wheel hits an obstacle, jars, rather than glides smoothly on). It is taxing, in that it requires us never to lose concentration. You can never stop thinking about energising what you're doing, even when you're not singing (or especially then, the silences are often more important than the notes). But that concentration saves us a lot of inefficient muscular work, like when we have to restart with every phrase rather than stay on the Wheel.

Another thing I noticed was how complicated we sometimes make life for ourselves. A couple of times, after introducing a new approach and asking a singer how it felt, John was surprised to hear us say: 'it feels less in control'. He always replied that it is in fact more in control, more supported, and that's certainly how it sounded to listeners. Why then did we feel out of control? I think it's because doing a lot of hard work, which John would deem unnecessary (unhelpful even, like over-modifying vowels), gives the illusion of control.

For me personally, this was one of the most valuable insights: don't work harder than you have to just to feel more in control. Another was the feeling of sending out a ball of energy at the end of every phrase, energising the rest to prepare for the next phrase (even if there isn't one)*. The next was preempting top notes, making sure that they come into their own (or in other words: the vowel sounds out) where they are written. This sometimes means anticipating them slightly, to stop myself from hitting them because I feel I'm late in making the sound. All that, and of course the Wheel ;)

* If my Head of Department ever reads this, she's bound to go 'That's what I've been telling him for years!'... I hope it's of some consolation to her that (fingers crossed) the penny has finally dropped :)

Once again, I want to reiterate how amazing it has been to start the new term off on such a strong note. I leave you with my favourite John Fisher quote:

'It's simple!!! That doesn't mean it's easy...'

And now for the random and confusing notes:

- When changing styles, you don't change how you sing.

- The end of a phrase energises the next one.

- Vowels are simpler than you think, even closed ones or 'dark' ones can be placed on the mask, without too much jaw work.

- Always put in the work before going to singing: text, why it's set a certain way, differentiating repeats. - Take a second to think about what the composer meant.

- When you arrive on a long note, don't take a break: immediately lift it, energise.

- What we do is chamber music, whatever the forces involved: the 'accompaniment' informs what you do and vice versa.

- Never apologise. Long notes need to reach the other side of the hill.

- Never sing the diphthongs, stay on the vowel as long as possible. Also, don't anticipate consonants.

- Don't make it happen, let it happen!

- Be aware of your body and posture when studying.

- 'U' vowels are very friendly vowels, as are 'i' vowels, but people seem to be afraid of them.

- Sing notes as if you're never going to leave them, even if they're short (intention, not length).

- Final notes: throw them up, let them fly, and then end by catching them, ready for the next throw.

- When taking a half step back in dynamic, increase the energy.

- Motivate before you sing. Breathe, motivate, sing.

- Imagine and visualise the vowel before placing it.

- It's simple! Doesn't mean it's easy...

- Bel canto: it's all about the vowels: the vowel must speak where the note is written, so the preceding consonant belongs to the previous note.

- Imagine the orchestra can't play without the energy you give them.

- A rest doesn't always equate to a breath. Neither does a comma. You can observe both without breathing. Too many short breaths may lead to shallowing the breathing, which leads to tension.

- Accents in bel canto are in the vowel, nothing to do with the consonant.

- A portamento isn't a slide, it's a link.

- If you make a decision to do something (optional top note) then flaunt it. If you can't, don't do it.

- When you're intimate, increase the energy.

- If you want to bring the audience to you (intimate moments) you do it with your support, the energy of your sound feeds back to the support, like a wheel that winds and reels the audience in.

- In cadential figures where you have a fermata on a first note, allow it to establish before you move off it to embellish.

- Even in recit, where we have some liberty, rhythms should be respected, especially rhythmic proportions.

- Use the energy of the word, the intention. Never try to make more sound, it'll happen on its own.

- It's not about the voice, it's about the energy and the text.

- When preparing, you need to get as close to the language as possible. Never underestimate the value of the grunt work.

- Sometimes when you see an interval you think you have to change something and shift position to make it. 9 times out of 10 you don't have to do anything.

- 'Oh' is not a word, it's a vocalisation of an emotion, so you have to decide what the emotion is, feel it and energise it before you sing the 'oh'.

- When there are short notes, don't short-change the vowel, or it becomes a diphthong or gets lost.

- Your imagination will do a lot of the work for you: imagine what you want to do (the sound you want) and then let it happen, don't make it happen by working the muscles.

- At the ends of phrases the energy always goes up, which will help if you 'don't know how to come off a note'.

- In combination vowels in German, find the pure vowel before moving into the diphthong. 

- The pauses between phrases are as important if not more important than the singing. They need more energy than when singing.

- With a leap, put consonants on the lower level and use them to bounce up and lift. Make sure they sound on the vowel where they are written (you may have to anticipate them).

'More! We want to hear it! You're pleading with him... Beat him into submission with the top note.'

'Don't feel you have to to modify. Just take the step and let the sound flower.'

On auditions:

Don't do them if you don't feel 200% in control. Think carefully about arias: 4-5, contrasting etc. but they have to be things you love and enjoy singing.

There's never one moment you will feel 'Yes! Now I am ready'.

You have to have something to say, being correct is not enough.

Don't get paranoid, try not to cancel if you're working and are ill, but when it comes to auditions, if you're not feeling 100%, don't do them.

So, what are your plans after college?

Last night I sang in a fund-raising concert in Abergavenny with some of my first-year colleagues from college. It was a great concert, with a responsive audience, a joy to perform, despite the church being freezing cold. Afterwards, we stayed for a glass of wine at the post-concert reception, where we had a chance to talk to the audience a bit. Apart from some heartfelt and heartwarming expressions of appreciation, quite a few of them displayed an interest in my future plans (I'm sure my colleagues got asked similar questions, most post-concert conversations tend to go along the same lines). It's a difficult one for singers to answer, at least when you're at the stage I'm at.

Does one take the optimistic route and say: well, hopefully I'll get into an opera studio next year and that'll be a spring-board into the profession, and before you know it I'll be the envy of all my friends... Personally, I don't tend to take that route, not because I don't think I'm good enough to get into an opera studio, or to get work, but because I know that once you reach a certain level it's not about being 'good enough' any more, it's about being who they want or need. And since I can only ever be myself, albeit the best I can be at any given time, I have to be ready for the fact that I may not be the one They (in the conspiratorial sense) want. A phrase to describe the attitude I try to take is: hopeful, but not expectant.

Thankfully, there's a straightforward and truthful answer I can give when asked about what's next. I can say I have work lined up for the Summer, which is very exciting, and go on to explain what that is, all the while keeping my fingers crossed behind my back that they don't ask about what happens after that. I was lucky with a few people, but then got pressed into revealing the truth:

There is only one plan, and it's a vague and scary one: audition as much as I can, and hope for success. At the BYO Anniversary Concert, Rosemary Joshua (world-class soprano) told us that for every 10 auditions she did as a young singer, she got only 1 offer. It seems the best approach in this case is to maximise your chances by lining up as many auditions as possible. There are however limiting factors, the most obvious of which is money (you'd have though that the tuition fees would be the end of it).

I see the twitter feed of one of my friends, who graduated this July, and since graduating she seems to have flown to New York 2 or 3 times, been to Germany even more times and still found time to visit Italy and Austria. All of this just for auditions (for companies, agents and competitions). Good for her! Except that not everyone... hardly anyone, in fact, can afford to do that. I haven't done the math properly, but it seems to be an expenditure of thousands of pounds pursuing contracts and prizes worth less than these travel costs.

Of course, success breeds more success, so I'm sure that once her travels pay off, there will be more work out of it afterwards, and it'll get easier to recoup the initial investment. Luckily she doesn't have to worry about it too much, but I know some people take out a loan to do what she does, and that is scary.

OK, I'm sounding a bit pessimistic now, and I've been getting complaints from readers ;) Guys, it's not all bad. There are plenty of opportunities locally, so we don't have to go jet-setting around the globe. And Rosemary Joshua said that yes, it's tough, and you have to learn not to take rejection personally, but performing more than makes up for it, because what we do is fantastic: we get to live and breathe music every day, we get to create worlds for others to escape to for a few hours. I've said it before, I can't see myself doing anything else. Whatever scale I end up working at, I love what I do and I will be happy doing it.

There's no point taking rejection personally (got one the other day as a matter of fact), because when you think about it, you aren't the only one they've not chosen. It's not personal! You're one of dozens, sometimes hundreds. What you can take personally is acceptance. I was given a vote of confidence by an opera festival to cover for them and sing chorus, and they obviously believe I can do it. This time last year I had just finished a contract with Scottish Opera, who also placed their confidence in me. I'm not saying this to big myself up, but to put things in perspective. I have successes to be proud of, which validate my continued pursuit of this career. I'm a better singer now than last year, and even the singer I was then was getting work. Surely it's not all doom and gloom, then.

So what are my plans after college? Auditions and patience.

We're all the same... in a good way. BYO 25th Anniversary

It's a small world, and as much as I hate starting a post with a cliché, this particular one was a sort of running theme for yesterday's 25th Anniversary Concert from British Youth Opera. I have to say, I've never been so glad of 8 hours spent on a bus (this is both ways, thankfully, and I am writing this courtesy of on-board wifi, so at least it's a semi-productive journey). While my role in the concert was only to slightly bolster the already formidable singing forces of BYO alumni in the final number, it was great to be in the audience and see the remarkable cross-section of singers who have come through this institution. You can imagine how interesting it was to hear soloist ranging from well-established singers I've seen and admired on the operatic stage like Rosemary Joshua (who was a principal in the very first BYO production in 1987) and David Kempster, through young professionals who are already making a mark as Young Artists at the UK's leading opera companies, all the way to this year's BYO principals, some of whom are still in college, and singers on every imaginable level of professional development in between.

For someone like me, reading the biographies in the programme and watching all these people perform was like looking at a road map of the singing world and all the routes one can take to get to where we ultimately want to be. Yes, they all had BYO in common, and the National Opera Studio figures in quite a few bios, but not all of them, and yet here they all are, with roles at major companies under their belt. It's comforting to think that it won't be the end of the world if I don't get into NOS, because there are other ways to success, all it takes is determination. It's funny how hung up we 'youngsters' can get on NOS and Glyndebourne Chorus. Yes, they're great, but there's a whole world of possibilities, so maybe we can afford to give ourselves a break and not act like failing at plan A is the end our careers (even before they've begun).

Another perk of being at the event as a BYO alumnus was backstage access and seeing how familiar everyone is together, regardless of age or standing. Maybe that's something that the BYO atmosphere evokes particularly well, but luckily it's not the only place I've experienced it. You can feel the unspoken words hanging in the air: we're all the same, really... in a good way. Yes, the small world means we are sort of competing, although that's not really the right word, I think a better way of putting is that we're all trying to find a place for ourselves in a slightly cramped space. Luckily most of us are polite people who don't push or shove and are ready to support someone who's stumbled.

Talking in the pub after, you don't even really think to yourself that the last place you saw the person opposite was the Coliseum stage or in an article about the Jette-Parker programme and how you wish that you get to do the same things... Well, obviously I've thought that ;) but luckily not at the pub, as most of these people don't provoke such thoughts, because they're just really nice. And when you do think about it, it's more about being glad that good things happen to good people and that since we're all not really that different, that means we all have a chance to find our place. And when we do, we'll keep running into our friends from back when it all started.


Once again, BYO has managed to give me a nice dose of optimism, and whether that's by design or inadvertently, I'm very grateful and glad I made the trip. It shows the company isn't just about the principal 'stars' but actually does something positive for everyone involved. Looking forward to the 50th!

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